I take a deep breath and lay my fingers on the keyboard. The flashing cursor teases me, seeming to befuddle the screen with its presence. With a shaky breath, I look at the computer screen. A blank page stares back at me. I close my eyes and go over the scenes again in my mind. The scenes of love that lead to heartbreak, scenes of defeat that lead to victory, and scenes of tears that lead to smiles. My eyes snap back open, and I write the first word of a story that I have tried to write a hundred times before. It is a story that breaks my heart and puts it back together, a story that moves my readers to tears while pulling from them a laugh which they never knew was there. It is the kind of story written by other authors, one I seem unable to create: the perfect story. Did famous authors feel this way? Was C. S. Lewis scared to share his writing, fearing to be rejected? Was Jane Austin scared of not being able to touch someone deeply? Was Shakespeare uncertain of his plays? I’ll never know. I’ll never be able to peek into their minds as they sat down to write the pieces that made them famous. Did they fail so many times like I have? Will I ever write my Romeo and Juliet, my The Chronicles of Narnia, my Lord of the Rings? Maybe I never will. Maybe others will never see my work. Maybe I will never be esteemed as an extraordinary writer. Maybe I’ll never know what it feels like to have my name be praised, but there is one thing I do know.
“I will never stop trying,” I whisper, letting words flow from somewhere deep inside of me. Maybe I need to find the laugh I didn’t know was there; maybe I need to hurt right beside my characters. Maybe, then, others will feel it too.
Meet the Author
How old are you?
I am fourteen years old.
Where do you live?
I live in Mount Pleasant, North Carolina, which is about an hippie outside of Charlotte.
What classes are you taking with TPS?
This year I took English 2 Lit and Comp: Mysteries and Missions with Mrs. Talbert, Algebra (Honors) with Mrs. Gathany, Russian 2 Language and Culture (Honors) with Mrs. Pledger, and Physical Science with Mrs. Heoschle.
What is your favorite thing about writing?
My favorite thing about writing is the freedom that comes with it. I’m pretty awful at talking with people and am extremely shy until I get to know someone. When I write, the words simply come without thinking about who will read them. I can show my heart to the world without the awkward silence that comes with conversations.