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Open Mic: The Sinner by Kimberly Caylor

Disclaimer: The opinions expressed herein are those of the author and do not necessarily represent those of clay Magazine or TPS.

As I stared into the darkness, cold sweat on my brow, I wondered if I would ever see light again. One little mistake, and this is where I ended up. A dark cold room with nowhere to go for comfort. No light, no love, nothing. My heart throbbed in my chest. It felt as though it might leap out of my body. The pain was beginning to be overwhelming. I slid down in my chair holding my stomach. When would the pain end?

“Somebody help me,” I whispered.

Silence. It rattled in my head.

“Make it stop. Make it stop!” I yelled.

Still silence and the sharp pain that wouldn’t leave my weary body. I was startled when I realized a burden weighing down my shoulders. All my sin weighed me down so heavily that I couldn’t stand. I couldn’t even sit up without struggling for breath. Oh, why had I done that? I had cheated, lied, stolen, and murdered. I thought following my own path would satisfy me, but it didn’t. It only gave me pain, fear, guilt, and destruction. The weight was too much to bear.

“Somebody help me!” I screamed, tears pouring down my face. I slipped from the chair to the floor, tears pouring down my face onto the cold, dark tile beneath me.

“Mathew,” a calm voice spoke.

“W-what?” I replied, confused. “Who are you? Where are you?”

“I am the way, the truth, and the life,” the man said.

I tried to speak but couldn’t. A small light appeared. I squinted, trying to see where the light was coming from. I saw the shadow of a body with wings.

Jesus. It was Jesus. He had come to help me. Embarrassed, I covered my head with my arms.

“I’m a sinner, Jesus. You are perfect. I have no right to be in your presence,” I sobbed.

“Mathew, I sent my son to die for you and for others like you who have sinned so that you may be in my presence.”

“Jesus, help me!” I screamed, reaching my arms out to Him.

He reached out and touched my hand. Instantly, I could see, and the pain was gone.

“Thank you, God!” I half whispered while I knelt down and clasped my hands together. My life would be different from now on. I would tell others of my experience and try to help them not go down the same road I had. The road of pain, fear, guilt, and destruction.


Meet the Author

How old are you?
I am 15.

Where do you live?

What classes are you taking with TPS?
English 1 Unlikely Heroes

What’s your favorite thing about writing?
I like expressing myself through writing. It’s one of the ways I can get my feelings out. When I wrote this story, I was feeling weighed down by sin, and I needed Jesus. Writing stuff like this not only helps me get my emotions out but also helps me grow closer to God.

Check out more of Kimberly’s writing at her blog!


  1. Wow, this is really good! Such a great reminder that no matter how low we’ve sunk, Jesus is still there for us.

  2. Nice job Kimberly! It really expresses the feelings of despair.

    P.S. In my opinion you are soooo pretty, haha!

    • Thanks! Yes it does!
      Aww thanks!!! That isn’t the best picture of me…. lol! my nose looks so big! ????????
      (Is that your real name?)????

      • Haha Kimberly what do you think? ????

        • I don’t think it is but I didn’t want to offend you if it was????????
          (What is your name then?)

          • hehe as if my name could actually be Puffin lol 🙂 Honestly I just made it up one afternoon while I was in my homeschool co-op, put my new name on an assignment, and accidentally (ahem ahem) left it in the classroom that I wasn’t in and left half the co-op playing detective in trying to figure out who wrote it haha. #wildgoosechasesarethebest
            (My name is kind of boring honestly. Its Grace (BTW y’all who are named Grace sorry but I feel like its too ordinary so I just go by Puffin McNugget on clay))

          • Hehe ya… I mean… I’ve heard of some pretty strange names….. hahhaahaha that’s so funny!!!
            Naw!! Grace is a good name! My sister’s name is Grace too!

  3. Lovely article, Kimberly! 🙂

  4. Wow what a beautiful piece of writing! Love your descriptions!

  5. WOW!! That’s beautiful. It just shows how much we need Jesus in our lives. And He will still help us even when we create a problem he will come and rescue us.

  6. Aaaa Kimmy i love this, great job!

  7. Great story and very moving. ????

  8. I am the Mysterious Person and it shall remain that way

    • Oooooooooof……………… I will never sleep again not knowing who you are????………….. I didn’t sleep last night because I was too busy trying to figure out who you are….. ????????????????????

  9. ????????????… I doubt anyone knows who I am.

  10. I think Kimmie that it will stay this way

  11. ???????????? I’m not saying ????????????

  12. Feel free to take a guess. Btw I think my favorite part of your story is imaging the burden. Also, the part at the end about the over all picture of Jesus saving us.

  13. Yes you do know me.

  14. ???????? Nahh it shall remain this way btw you should make another story sometime.

  15. On the plus side, I’m getting a bunch of views and comments from this.. but I still must know who you are ????????????

  16. Oh I did not realize that it keeps track of comment or views lol. Also my name should be evident by now ???????? but I have the right to remain silent ????????????????????

  17. I just realized you got like 400 more views and the emojis are just emojis maybe maybe not my name with a C possibly or possibly not

    • WOW!! I LEFT FOR A LITTLE BIT AND I CAME BACK AND I HAVE OVER 2000 VIEWS!! WHAAT!?!? So those emojis don’t mean anything to you? ????????They just happen to be those emojis? Are your initials CB?

    • I replied to these.. I dunno why it isn’t showing up.. dumb computers haha…. anyways I said…..
      yea I can’t believe I left for a few hours and I came back with over 2000 views!! how did that happen?! So the emojis ???????? don’t mean ANYTHING to you?? Are your initials CB?

  18. If eleven plus two equals one, what does nine plus five equal?
    Solve this riddle and I will give you a letter of my name

  19. When I left I had 974 views… how did I possibly get so many views in a few hours!?!? I don’t understand!!

  20. yes it is 2

  21. okay my name has an S in it good luck

  22. my computer is being dumb and not posting my comments…… so confused rn????

  23. Okay I will give you anther riddle

  24. BTW If the think you know who I am do not say my name only the first letter of my name and the last letter my name ends in same with my last name first letter and last letter of my last name

  25. There was a man who was born before his father, killed his mother, and married his sister. Yet, there was nothing wrong with what he had done. Why?
    Here you are!!!

  26. His father was in front of him when he was born, therefore it was born before him. His mother died while giving birth to him. Finally, grew up to be a minister and married his sister at her ceremony….. right? Hehehehehe I so smart

  27. I have an a in my first or last name

  28. ???????????????????? i wonder if these meant anything Kimmy now Kimmie

  29. I just read all the mysterious person conversations.
    I still do not know who she/he is?

  30. Amazing story, Kimberly! I love the way you wrote it. Keep up the good work!