Arts & Culture

Numb

Verse 1:

I find my mind’s in some bad places
I’ve been tripping over my shoelaces
I’ve been falling down; I scrap my knee
Then sitting there just to watch it bleed
I feel all messed up inside
I feel trapped inside my mind
I’m looking for hope–it seems I’ll never find
I’m searching, but it feels like a waste of time
I feel broken down like a car on the side of the road
I guess my minds got an oversized load
It makes me sad that none of my friends notice
I guess it’s my own fault cause I never show this
I never show this side of me
I keep it locked down inside of me
I deal with the pain and don’t let it show
I keep it hidden so my friends will never know
I don’t want people to worry about me
I never let people see me crying
I put on a smile, and they think I’m happy
Then going home and breaking down completely
I’ve been living this double life
And it’s making me cold as ice
It’s making me numb to the pain
Heedless of the rain
I have this feeling like something’s wrong
I guess that’s why I’m writing this song

Chorus:

I’m feeling numb like the sun’s gone down
I feel unloved; maybe there’s none to be found
I’ve gone numb to emotion
Numb to the screaming
Numb to this pain inside of me
I guess now it’s become a part of me
I’m rejecting your sympathy
Cause it feels fake yeah undoubtedly
I’ve been searching for a meaning
Guess I went numb to the feeling

Verse 2:

I find my mind’s in some bad places
I’ve been tripping over my shoelaces
I’ve been falling down I scrap my knee
Then sitting there just to watch it bleed
I tend to lose myself when I’m alone
I’m still looking for a place to call home
I have all this emotion built up inside
I’m tired of hearing all the lies
I open my mouth in a soundless scream
Cheeks are dry but on the inside my tears stream
I feel like I’ve lost touch with reality
I feel like I’ve lost my meaning
I’m wondering what happened to me
Wondering why I’ve been so cold lately
I don’t even smile
Not even a little
I put on a front, so my friends don’t notice
It’s become so good I don’t have to focus
It just comes naturally now
I know I’m lost, I’m just trying to be found
I’ve been living this double life
And it’s making me cold as ice
It’s making me numb to the pain
Heedless of the rain
I have this feeling like something’s wrong
I guess that’s why I’m writing this song

Chorus:

I’m feeling numb like the sun’s gone down
I feel unloved; maybe there’s none to be found
I’ve gone numb to emotion
Numb to the screaming
Numb to this pain inside of me
I guess now it’s become a part of me
I’m rejecting your sympathy
Cause it feels fake yeah undoubtedly
I’ve been searching for a meaning
Guess I went numb to the feeling

 

About the Author:

Name Caleb Esatto

I am 16 years old. I am taking Anatomy and Physiology with TPS this year, and this is my first year with TPS. A few of my hobbies include track, basketball, cross country, swimming, reading, and songwriting/music production. I first heard about Clay, first from Jessica Seabolt, and then through my A&P teacher, Mr. Brazeal.

 

4 Comments

  1. Love this man. I feel ya. Keep on writing brother!

  2. All those words… it sounds like you transcribed all my thoughts. It’s funny but this is the song I’ve wanted to write for so long and now I found someone’s written it already. This is my life in a page. I’m torn between wanting to scream about how good this is and between wanting to cry about how real this is. I’m sorry you’re going through this too. Stay strong, bro.

  3. This is awesome! I totally identify with it.

  4. I really love your song. It is easy to identify with and it is beautiful. Do you have a youtube account with this song? I don’t want to not be able to read it at the end of the year.