Arts & Culture

No Longer Want To Be

fake it till you make it yell “those” kids

that’s what they all say

maybe that’s how they made it up there

am I right?

I try, try, try

to be someone that I’m not

I’m an oughtta-be, wanna-be, gotta-be

the cycles of strife surge me on

I’m a workaholic, control freak, and perfectionist… to the T

I want to win, win, win

get up on top, feel good about myself

I find myself bending down

bending myself to win the hearts of people

bending myself to win a little more love

bending myself to win just a little more approval and just a few more scraps of acceptance

but I fail, fail, fail

when I try

to win

maybe instead I should try to be

a serveaholic instead of a workaholic

and let someone else be in control of me

maybe instead I should

turn to the cross of perfection–at the only true perfectionist

instead of making one out of me

what if instead, I embraced myself

for who I am, and for who I will always be–

beloved, for all eternity.

 

About the Author:

Name: Anna Leong

Age: 18

How long have you been apart of TPS? I have been taking TPS classes for two years.

I have been taking TPS classes for two years.

 

What classes are you taking with TPS this year? This year I am taking AP Art History with Mrs. Beachler and College Psychology with Dr. Bridges.

This year I am taking AP Art History with Mrs. Beachler and College Psychology with Dr. Bridges.

 

What are a few of your hobbies?

I enjoy expressing myself through the gift of words, music, and art. In my free time, you will probably find me reading a book, writing, playing piano, viola, singing, or dabbling in some kind of art.

 

How did you hear about Clay Magazine?

I found out about Clay through Instagram, and then on StudyPlace.

2 Comments

  1. This poem is so fantastic, Anna. I love it! Great job.